Just a Candle

When does this end? Just when you think you've hit rock bottom, you realize it can get deeper. I cannot tell you how uncomfortable I am at this moment. I have no income, no money, no hope at all. I can't remember the time that I had money to stash in my savings or pay my tithes. When you think everything is coming together... when you see the silver lining... you realize your eyes are playing tricks on you. I cannot see the silver lining. I cannot see anything, but darkness. I can imagine the light. I dream about it everyday, but when I wake up I don't see anything. No one or thing within 100 square miles. I cannot see my own hand in front of me. Or is it behind me? My perception is out of wack. I don't know who or what to believe or where I am. I am all alone with no one to run to. All I can do is fall to my knees, and beg God for guidance. I cannot go on like this.

"God, give me guidance, give me strength. I cannot see without you, I cannot, I am not, I will not! Life has gotten so hectic. Can you please light a candle for me? I need a bit of light in all of this darkness. 'Round and around, I walk in circles. I don't know where the path is. I don't know where I am, where I'm going, or where I need to be. Please, oh please. I ask you not for bulb, but for a candle. I just need something. Please."

XOXO
-Bitty

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