My College Story ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I miss college!
I'll be honest, I was a super goof in college. I used to hangout, not even do the bare minimum on homework, and I used up my 7 absences in my classes as if they were mandatory. So you could imagine my grades. Then, boom family problems! I had no idea that they existed until they were brought to my attention.
It was better when I was in the dark about the situation. Ya see, if you really know me, you know that I am very much an empathetic being. When I say, "I feel ya!", I actually do. Anyway, I worried so much. I didn't have the will to get out of bed. My friends just figured I was being a bum, but I couldn't blame them. I had a history of being a bum. And I HATE sharing my emotions, because I view it as me being selfish, so they didn't know.
My advisor, who I had 2 classes with, stopped me one day and she looked me in the eye and asked me what the matter was. She noticed that I had been not there that day. I fought back those tears, and gave her an inkling of a summary to what was going on. That is the first time I felt valued at that school. She wasn't there to judge. She genuinely cared about my well-being.
*FAST-FORWARD*
Senior Year:
I still wasn't doing well in my classes. I'm not so sure what was going on with me. I could see that I wouldn't be graduating May 2014. I had too many credits left to take. I swear everything went wrong that year. I had just given up on myself. I was on either Warning or Probation already. I got really scared, so I withdrew for the next semester even before I received my grades.
I returned during the Spring 2015 semester. I had a full semester of credits, then boom Student Accounts and Financial Aid. They were like "Nope, because Grades." So... I dropped all but 1 course. I had to pay $2600 out of pocket. I had a really great paying job at the time, so I convinced myself that I could do it. I failed terribly at paying, but I did complete and pass the course. I still owe them $2600 til this very day. Needless to say, that was the last semester I attended college.
I don't really hangout with anyone anymore, because I just knew that they viewed me as a complete failure. Regardless of how they feel or don't feel, I know I'm not a failure. I have conquered so many things, that I know I can trust God to see me through this and anything that comes my way. I know that I will get my degree in time.
*This story isn't here so that I can get any sympathy.
If you are having a hard time in college or any school, get help. Someone cares. And please by all means, find an accountability partner, mentor, or counselor who you can confide in. Don't hold things in.
Stay healthy. Be confident. Love yourself and others!
XOXO,
B. Ieisha

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