The Victorious (ex-) Victim
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding,"
The following is an excerpt from my journal:
"August 12, 2015
I feel so useless to everyone, and everything is going wrong. The one good thing is that I have closure with (insert Name).. As I was saying, my life is so terrible. I'm broke, not going to school, bad credit, a high balance on my (insert credit card), and everything sucks! I don't have many friends. I feel like I'm chasing everyone away. I am DAMAGED, but I'm still going to press on. I want to just throw in the towel, and live the sad impoverished life in silent agony, but because of you I have to fight this thing through.
That was that sort of "all talk and no action" faith. I was severely severed, but I just couldn't give up. I guess I had a wee bit of faith, because I could never completely give up. I once was so down that I asked God if my purpose in life was to be the poster gal of unfortunate events. This way people can see what they didn't want to happen to them in their lifetime, and try to avoid it at all costs. I was heading towards rock bottom at this point. When I finally got there, I realized that my reality was just that, but in a more positive manner. My life experiences were meant to be displayed so that others could relate or learn from them.
It's actually really positive, because I can help guide my future children with issues that I've been through. If I had given up completely, I wouldn't be here. I'll be the first to say that my life is no where near perfect, but it's exactly where it needs to be. Having faith will make your triumphs 100x better! It will help you see yourself as a victor, not a victim. Trust in God loves! He will direct your path!
Here's a little encouragement, please stay encouraged loves!! I love you all!
Be strong! Be patient! And love God, yourself, and everyone else. Love conquers all!