🎶All around us things are changing. Seasons come and seasons go!🎶
I learned that song in 4th grade in Music-Drama Club! We had to sing it at the 5th Grade Graduation ceremony. It was so emotional, because I knew that would be me next year. Unfortunately like the song says, "seasons come and seasons go". My family's season of living in that small town was over a few months short of me actually experiencing that moment. Don't get me wrong, I still graduated from 5th grade, but not with friends that I have known since Preschool and Kindergarten. Not only that, but I would soon realize that I would never get to be that girl who'd marry a guy that I went all the way through college with.
I've spent a good deal of my life (so far) being frustrated about things not happening as I wanted them to. I always end up putting my eggs in one basket, and that's in almost every area of my life. Circumstances have changed, but have I? I sit here typing this post, and I'm really seeing how much I have settled for less, sabotaged great relationships, and given up on things as they get difficult, all out of fear. And don't get me started on peer pressure... It's way more difficult as an adult. It's actually Family Pressure as an adult. "When are you going back to school?" "When are you getting married?" "I can't wait until you have kids." Sometimes I just wanna scream, "LEAVE ME ALONE!" Jeez Louise! It's like this single, slightly awkward 25 year old version of me isn't good enough. I know I'm not necessarily the best I could be right now, but that's not due to the lack of a boyfriend or husband. I have always been Brittany, and I will always be Brittany! I was born an individual, not attached to a husband. I have so much value that when I do get married, We'll add value to each other's lives, not just him adding value.
LOVE ME FOR ME!
I may not have my since-preschool-dream-guy, but I am definitely happy with my since-birth-self.
Love yourself as an individual! Don't pressure or take press anyone else. Stay loving and beautiful! 💜🎶😍😘